Hey guys, how are you? I’m feeling a bit frustrated just now, as I’m sure you would have guessed by the ingenious title to this post.
Basically life’s sort of throwing a lot at me at the moment. To begin with, I’m due to start my new (second) course at college next Monday. I was really looking forward to it until I found out that I wasn’t doing the level of course I wanted to, which I was even supposed to be doing last year. In my induction day yesterday, they went through the course I am doing this year and it basically sounds exactly the same as last years, from which I learnt virtually nothing about web design and development. I learnt some hardware stuff but that was it.
I was fine with my first year at college being like that; I’d just left school not to mention overcome depression and stuff, so it was nice to have a year that was a little bit more relaxing and not overwhelming like my last year at school had been. I still had work and things to keep me busy but it wasn’t particularly challenging, y’know?
But the idea of facing a second year of that, is just so frustrating! It means I’ll have basically left school for no reason at all, when I could have been getting qualifications there. I’m really annoyed and next week, if it does seem like this course is going to be too samey or not challening enough, I’m going to kick up a fuss to get moved.
And then there’s home life. My younger stepsister has just moved out, Sophie. She’s 14, and she’s just went off to live with her aunt. I don’t want to write a lot on the subject because it’s hard for anyone who doesn’t know her to understand her. Basically she’s just a totally ungrateful little brat. I hate saying bad things about people, and I most certainly wont say my opinion about someone (if it’s bad) unless I well and truly mean it. But that’s what she is. My mum and stepdad have given her everything they can – they fought for her in court to get her away from her alocoholic mother when she was five, and she’s done nothing but hate my mum (who’s treated her no different to how she treats me and my older brother) and cause trouble ever since.
Personally I believe her Grandparents are to blame, as they’ve always treated her like she’s God’s gift, even amongst her other two cousins (who she’s now living with) that are the same age – she always gets more money, and stays with them every weekend and gets everything she wants – new clothes, new phones; she got a netbook the other day ‘because she asked for it’. As far as I’m concerned, she resents my Mum and her Dad because they don’t have the money to provide that sort of luxury life for her, and so she’s upped and left. Apparently now though, her Grandparents have realised what she’s really like due to the fact she’s left and left them with no money. Hmm..
And just to top things off, my Stepdad’s just been diagnosed with Gout in his shoulders, which if you don’t know is basically a type of really bad arthritis. He is in incredible physical (not to mention emotional because of Sophie) pain constantly, and can barely move his top half. He’s not the type of man to say he’s not well or ask for help, so when he does you know something’s seriously wrong. He’s unable to work and though they say he’ll be off for a while, quite frankly I don’t understand how he’s going to be able to work at all anymore. My Mum basically has to dress and shower him, and even things like picking up a mug of tea he’s finding really hard to do.
Basically everything’s a little shitty just now.
Well, I just wanted to vent this all out, and this is what this blog is for so there you go (:
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